I've always wanted to own my own bookstore/coffee shop, and this is what I want to call it. I actually hate cherries, except fresh Bing cherries. But honestly, a hot fudge sundae is not complete without a cherry. It's just that extra topping that makes it perfect. And that's what I want out of life...all the extras that God gives to make it "perfect" or at least a little closer to heavenly.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

This is Me



I SOOO want to be that mom and wife. The one that I blog about--who relishes her husband and children, who satisfies her husband's every desires, who can sit and play with her children without thinking of the 74 other things she should be doing. But I'm not her. I'm ME and lately it's been killing me!

Yesterday, Lloyd had to work late so he didn't get home until 7:00. So in my mind I had it all worked out where I would have homework done, the kids bathed, a fabulous supper on the table, etc. Instead, all hell was breaking loose! I had taken all 3 kids to Walmart for the 2nd and LAST time! So by the time I got done, the last thing I wanted to do was cook dinner. And how in the world was that going to happen between the crying baby who's hungry, the cranky 2 year old who's hungry, and the angry, ill-adjusted 5 year old who's hungry? What I did manage was a frozen pizza for the boys, a bottle for Brady, and a very quick bath. We were all cranky by the time Lloyd got home. I just said "I'm sorry!" He of course had no idea what I was talking about! I explained, and he told me that I need "to let go of that." He is perfectly happy with the way I am and understands that I have 3 small children to care for. (I am so thankful for him!) So why is it that I can't grasp that? Why is it that I want to be "Super-Mom?"

I was asking my home-group ladies to pray for me tonight about it. One of them made a comment that it took her 42 years to realize that God made her the way she was and she hoped it didn't take me as long. That really struck me! I was reminded that God created to be this way! I am not super-mom. I can't do it all. My ministry right now is not my toilets or my floors or even a fabulous dinner. My ministry right now is my children and my husband and the youth kids and hopefully a few other people that God places in my path during the day. So who cares if my floors aren't swept every day and my toilet hasn't been cleaned this week? If you do, don't come to my house! :)

So ladies, may we enjoy who we are as individuals! May we never look at each other's blogs and lives with envy (I admit it-I've done it). May we rejoice in the woman that God created us to be!

8 comments:

robbieniccum said...

*standing ovation*

I love you Randi, and feel exactly the same way....
I thank God for Lloyd who is perfect for you!!!!

as for the toilets, here is my idea....you know how at the gym they have the towels and spray cleaner on the wall? yup, I'm ging to have one installed and when people enter my restroom, they will be free to use them if they want : )

TexasNeals said...

i can SO identify!!! just last night i was talking to billy about how much i love blogs, but it's so hard not to compare myself to all these moms that totally have it together. thing is....they don't! none of us do!!! it's easy to make everything look perfect on a blog (although i'm not trying to say that people are trying to do that, it's just more fun to post about the good and fun things that you do). no one is perfect!!! all of us have dirty toilets!!!! ;) but you've got it right. our ministry ISN'T to our toilets or our houses it's to PEOPLE!!!! our children that God has blessed us w/, our wonderful husbands, our neighbors and strangers. first things first! :)
and by the way....you are SUPER MOM. not because you have the perfectly clean house and the perfect kids and the perfect meal....but b/c you are a super MOM!
oh, and since this is WAY too long already, i wanted to mention that i gave you a standing ovation too!!! ;)

3 wonderful gifts said...

I'm so with you on this one!!!! You hit the nail on the head. on another note the Historical parts of Fort smith are so fun and educational we plan on going to all the tour houses down there too!! Hope you get as much enjoyment out of it as we did.

The Hamby's said...

Whew!!! I'm glad I'm not the only one!!! I do set very high expectations for myself, and it is hard to RELAX a little if the house is messy. Unfortunately, I got that from my own mother who is NOW close to being perfect (but that is because her kids are grown and she doesn't work...so she has all the time in the world). But she finally admitted to me a couple of years ago that she didn't used to be that way when she had 3 small children at home. She admitted to mounds of unfinished laundry, dirty dishes in the sink for two days and NO TIME to clean the toilets!! When she told me this it gave me hope that ONE DAY...I too will have a clean home again!!!!!!!!! So your right...why do I worry so much about the house being clean!! YES, we've got good intentions, but let's not get too "out of sorts" when the day doesn't go the way we had planned it. One of my favorite sayings is that "laundry can wait, unless we need clean underwear". We can never get back this TIME with our children!!!!

2 Little Lights said...

Randi! Randi! Randi! Do I have to say it again...YOU ARE SUPER in everyway! Who you are is so beautiful. I can't begin to explain to you how precious, motivating, awesome, devoted,loving, courageous, funny, wise, honest, trustworthy, motivating, giving, REAL, encouraging, of a woman you are(and don't forget so much more than I mentioned.) YOU are YOU! And I love you just the way you are:) I just wrote about something on my blog becasue I wanted to give up on being the person I am. I let insecurities get in the way. Don't you do it either! Be who you are and give it your best! God knows us best because he made us! I love how he made you and if you were someone else, I don't think I would like you as much, LOL! Did I tell you, you're the best...you're the best...you're the best! Oh and your the best:)

The Loftis Family said...

It was good to read your blog. I SO totally agree with what you said, but sometimes we all need to be reminded of what's truly important.

Vicki said...

I struggled with the same things when my kids were small. I was so worried about how I appeared to the "outside world". Now I realize WHO STINKING CARES? Do you worry about how clean your friends house is when you visit? I visit friends to see them not to judge their toliets! :) Besides, if my "friend" doesn't think I measure up to her standards of motherhood, then she needs to take it up with my heavenly father. He is the only person I am out to please and I read in the bible that Jesus satisfied His Father's expectations for me! How awesome is that? I see so much pressure put on young moms today. Don't buy into the lie that your worth is attached to how well organized you run your family and how many times this week you made your husband happy. Life is not about that. It's about every second you spend kissing your beautiful baby, being silly with your 2 year old and encouraging your 5 yr old to overcome his fears. These are the things that are stored up in heaven!All the other crap will burn up one day. So i say relax, enjoy your kiddos and your awesome husband! Then people will want what you have! Love you girl!!

Amy Mccathran said...

Thanks for the post Randi! I understand too, like the other moms have posted as well. I'm sitting in my wreck of a house feeling guilty for not cleaning it right now, but knowing my baby to be needs me to rest! Its so hard to do it all and refreshing to know that God doesn't expect us too. I think he looks at our hearts not our houses :)I want to encourage you to continue being such a wonderful wife and mother. You're the person I also think of when I need advice or comfort. You're the best! I'm sad I missed you last Saturday in Dallas. Love you!